Elise my best friend EVER since about age three is visiting..it's awesome
in fact she sitting next to me
just watched a movie...it was pretty sick...in a good way
annnd to vent a little....
k....its not a very convincing argument that you give a shit about my life if you NEVER EVER keep in touch with me...never answer any of my messages, ever call back, and then when you do you try and blame it on anything but yourself....no you just BLOW as a friend...yeah..and chances are if your reading this..it probably does not even apply to you ..I'm just venting...
well and trying to get in the habit of blogging...
oh sorry about the language
other than that...yesterday some people came over for a goodbye shin dig...it went well
the food rocked
tom should be sweet
santa cruz with elise and christine!
peace!
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Thursday, March 29, 2007
yay blogging!
never blogged before...nice...:D
it's my last week at home, actually my last in the US...ouch, never really thought I'd say something like that...well at least for the next twelve to eighteen months. I think it hit me when we started packing up all our shit like a month ago. yeah. Since then i think I've answered the same handful of questions about lets see... a million times...yeah thats about right...
lets see if i can clarify some of them for you eh?
first NO, i don't know where exactly I'm going or what exactly I'll be doing...therefore, just about everything a a big question mark. NO i don't know what my schedule will look like, NO i don't know how communication will work when i get there and NO i obviously don't know my address and if your a real thinker you may have figured out that if i tell you i don't know where I'm going then MAYBE i don't know how hot the area will be. Please folks.
lets see.. how do i feel...
i don't know, weird?! It's odd thinking that your about to put your life on pause for a year. Not like its not weird enough being in the army and coming home to visit but everyone else's life will go on for a year. I'm gunna come back and poof! a year later. Once the reality of it all hits i find myself thinking of all the little things. things i won't do, have, or have access to. i won't drive my car down the street singing to whatever god awful song is playing. i won't go to the supermarket or over to a friends place. i won't wear civilian clothes. i won't pick my meals. i won't do my hair(other than in a bun)...their will be no need and nowhere to go...I find it's one of the hardest feeling to describe. It's not fear i feel, maybe a little bit anxious but i think thats reality.
I'm chill right now, almost like the calm before a storm. Their are some things that just don't matter. Or people that did that I'm done wasting my time with. is that mean? hope not, it doesn't phase me. i haven't made plans other than a small get together tonight. I'm not too stressed about it though who ever comes comes. I'm not worried about doing everything and seeing everyone. I almost feel just that much more numb than ever before.
Maybe now I'm just rambling..but isn't that sorta what the hell these things are, if its a total waste of time then i guess it just won't get read right?....
i burned my tongue on my coffee this morning...
and played duck duck goose to set this damn thing up....
more to come later but i gotta go.duty calls.
i need to get better at the whole blogging thing...
it's my last week at home, actually my last in the US...ouch, never really thought I'd say something like that...well at least for the next twelve to eighteen months. I think it hit me when we started packing up all our shit like a month ago. yeah. Since then i think I've answered the same handful of questions about lets see... a million times...yeah thats about right...
lets see if i can clarify some of them for you eh?
first NO, i don't know where exactly I'm going or what exactly I'll be doing...therefore, just about everything a a big question mark. NO i don't know what my schedule will look like, NO i don't know how communication will work when i get there and NO i obviously don't know my address and if your a real thinker you may have figured out that if i tell you i don't know where I'm going then MAYBE i don't know how hot the area will be. Please folks.
lets see.. how do i feel...
i don't know, weird?! It's odd thinking that your about to put your life on pause for a year. Not like its not weird enough being in the army and coming home to visit but everyone else's life will go on for a year. I'm gunna come back and poof! a year later. Once the reality of it all hits i find myself thinking of all the little things. things i won't do, have, or have access to. i won't drive my car down the street singing to whatever god awful song is playing. i won't go to the supermarket or over to a friends place. i won't wear civilian clothes. i won't pick my meals. i won't do my hair(other than in a bun)...their will be no need and nowhere to go...I find it's one of the hardest feeling to describe. It's not fear i feel, maybe a little bit anxious but i think thats reality.
I'm chill right now, almost like the calm before a storm. Their are some things that just don't matter. Or people that did that I'm done wasting my time with. is that mean? hope not, it doesn't phase me. i haven't made plans other than a small get together tonight. I'm not too stressed about it though who ever comes comes. I'm not worried about doing everything and seeing everyone. I almost feel just that much more numb than ever before.
Maybe now I'm just rambling..but isn't that sorta what the hell these things are, if its a total waste of time then i guess it just won't get read right?....
i burned my tongue on my coffee this morning...
and played duck duck goose to set this damn thing up....
more to come later but i gotta go.duty calls.
i need to get better at the whole blogging thing...
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