leaving home and airports and stuff

so i really don't even feel in the writing mood but oh well...
it's definitely like 245 am and ill be leaving home for the last time in a few hours
i feel awful, their is so much love here
i wish you could feel it...i don't want to go to the airport
airports are always awkward and everyone knows it.
No matter what you do you eventually have to say bye and then you stand there
two feet away in the security line...it's awkward
you look back, and look back again..and again and maybe one last time as you put your shoes on and walk away after going threw the metal detector deal...
annnd maybe a wave or something as the receiving party stares and waves helplessly as if it will make the situation better...it doesn't
i've been dreading the day i have to leave my family at the airport...i've been somehow thinking that maybe it won't be as hard as i imagine
i highly doubt it
what if they cry? ill crack like an egg...my family is so sweet, i love them so much and i don't at all want to hurt them...
time for bed.